Three years ago, I found myself in my "happy place" after my family’s world was rocked by the heartbreaking loss of Damian and Ashley’s traumatic accident. I walked the beach with sand between my toes, the sun had just come up and the rays were beaming off the still water, and egrets were scurrying up and down the shore in time with the rolling surf. This Florida beach where my mom calls home, where we often go as a family, was now my refuge from the world, a place where I came seeking solitude and renewal from life’s cruelties. I was the only one on the beach as far as my eyes could see, but I wasn’t alone. The Lord was walking with me as He had from the beginning.
Lord, I’m going to be real! This isn’t how it was supposed to be, Lord. Damian and I were supposed to grow old together, raise our beautiful children together, we had finally settled into our new Colorado home and Damian loved it there.
I felt exhausted, numb and overwhelmed.
I never strove to be perfect but I could now feel the brokenness of my heart and my life like this broken shell. Yet there was a unique beauty to it, a perseverance, a determination, courage, and strength to get through. My eyes looked up and I could see the collection of broken shells and bits and pieces scattered for miles along the shoreline. I was not alone in life’s difficult journey. And I knew that the circumstances in my life did not just happen to me, that the Lord would use all of it in the story of my family’s life…for good.
“We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him.” Romans 8:28
The Lord and I walked and talked on that beach that day. Ok, Lord, I am going to trust you...I am broken and hurting…but only you can heal and fill my brokenness with your love and strength.
In that moment, I could feel His loving arms around me, His peace, and I knew I wouldn’t journey alone but that He would be my healer, comforter and teacher through it all. And that has proved to be true.
As I launch this site as a place of connection with those of you needing encouragement and refreshment, I wanted you to know the background of Beautiful Journey and the reasons why I chose the image of the broken shell. God met me in a place when I was weary and broken to tell me that I would not walk this journey alone and that my scars would tell of life’s hardship but also of His faithfulness and restoration.
Are you broken too? Do you need a place of connection and healing? Please send me a message. I would so enjoy connecting with you!